Think Positive!Β 


I’ve been stuck in a rut lately. I feel like since finishing uni I’ve been rather lost. For someone who likes to have everything planned out and know what she’s doing next I found it rather odd. I’ve felt really negative and not myself. 

I went to the hospital today to have my last joint clinic with my orthodontist and the surgeon who done my jaw surgery nearly two years ago. It was weird being back. All was well but as I came out I said to my dad that that surgeon had literally changed my life. And then I broke down and cried. It was as though all this built up emotion of the past few months had suddenly built up and was finally released. Thinking about it though,it was probably built up emotion from the operation itself. After I had it done it felt as though I was in auto pilot and it took me ages to know how I felt. 

My orthodontist asked if I was glad I’d had it done. My answer:100%. I know it sounds like a cliche,but the surgeon really did change my life. I’ve become so much more confident and happier in myself since. Even though to him it was just his job-to me it was everything I didn’t know I needed. It was a new start and a completely new outlook. 
I came away after that appointment annoyed that I let myself be so down about things. 


From now on:

-I’m going to start thinking positive again! A job will come up soon. For now I’m going to enjoy the free time I have. 

-I’ll continue working on my novel. Especially as there are professional literary people are interested in reading it. Amelia and Dylan now is your chance to shine. Don’t let me down. 

-Carry on blogging. I don’t know what about exactly but something is bound to come up. Suggestions welcome. 

-Go to the theatre and do fun things as much as possible. Starting with the 40 years of Bugsy Malone exhibition on Sunday. Chitty Chitty Bang Bang and Friends Fest at the end. And hopefully Funny Girl,Guys and Dolls and Yerma thrown in for good measure too. 

-Enjoy the little things and stay positive. The negativity isn’t helping anyone. Especially yourself. 

-Stop worrying about whether a guy likes you. Let go of the fantasy you had about developing a relationship with him when he doesn’t make the effort to talk to you. If he likes you he will. The right guy will come along,you just have to patient. Stop looking. Concentrate on the great things in life. 

-Read more. As much as you can. Anything. Everything. Write about it. 

-Just Live. 


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Bye Bye Braces πŸ‘„

Bye bye Braces

   

   

So after almost 6 months post op,today I got the surprise of getting my braces off. And let me tell you it’s the best feeling EVER! To know I can now smile without the braces getting in the way is ace. 
She said she couldn’t be happier with my bite and went to see if they could make my retainer in the lab. She said not to get my hopes up,but luckily they came back with a yes. 
This meant the braces coming off,which hurt quite a lot,but thinking about it they would do as they’ve been on my teeth for three years. After they were off she cleaned off the glue and made up some moulds to make the retainer. The horrible moulds,for those who have had braces you’ll know the ones I mean. For those who haven’t,it’s basically clay which gets pushes into your teeth to create the shape for the retainers. Not nice. 
Looking at myself in the mirror was a huge difference but a happy one. I keep touching my teeth as weird as that sounds,I can’t get used to the fact the braces are no longer there. 
Think it’s safe to say I’ll be smiling more from now on. β˜ΊοΈπŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ŠπŸ‘„

Week 11:Post Op

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Wow so I haven’t updated my blog in almost two weeks. Apologies for that guys. The past few weeks have been busy with finishing uni for Christmas and I haven’t had time to update.

Rather than give you a low down of each day over the past two weeks,I’ll just let you know the important stuff.

Uni update:

So I finished uni two weeks ago with a timed law assessment which involved me answering four questions about law. Once that was finished with I went for a celebratory drink with my friend at our course Christmas party,which was nice.

Due to a change of plan I ended up staying in Southampton an extra day. This resulted in me binge watching the last two series of secret diary of a call girl,(Welcome back Billie piper phase),seeing friends and ordering dominos. Ah student life.

I’m happy to say that I met all my deadlines despite having five weeks off for recovery. I’m now done work wise until I come back from New York. Wahoo! Which by the way,is 23 days away. Eeek!

Post Op update:

Not a lot has happened post op wise. It’s now been over 11 weeks since I had it done though! I’m starting to eat normally again which is great. I went to my Nan’s for a few days last week and found I could eat chocolate again. By that I mean biting into a galaxy bar. Yum!

I also managed to eat Pringles. Jaw is suffering now though so think I may have over done it a tad. Oops!

The bad news is I still can’t swallow pasta. I can chew it but it doesn’t go down very well. I did enjoy the meatballs I had tonight(Friday) instead though.

The bands are doing their job nicely. For now anyway,I think that’ll go out the window when I go to New York because I’ll constantly be eating.

Social update:

Speaking of New York,I met up with Lucy yesterday to fill her in on everything. I don’t think I’ve ever been so excited,especially as she’s coming too. I’m excited to introduce her to my uni friends and experience a trip of a lifetime with someone else who understands. Bring on January 12th.

I’m off to winter wonderland this afternoon which I’m excited about as I’ve never been. Even though we’re not ice skating it will still be lovely to have a wander and get in the Christmas spirit.

Before all this though,I should probably explain last Monday.

I met up with Alice and we attended the premiere of Night at the Museum:Secret of the Tomb.

There,I met Dan Stevens of Downton Abbey which made me very happy. The part that made me more happy though,was that he recognised me from picture I sent to him on twitter that afternoon. How cool?

Anyway,it was a great day. Id forgotten how much I loved the premiere atmosphere,despite being really cold.

Looking forward to more in the new year.

Writing update:

In my last blogpost I mentioned I made a start on a story. I wrote 6000 words of it and then added a prologue. A few days later I went back and rewrote it,taking out the prologue and beginning in the action of the first chapter. Im now not sure which I prefer. I’m hoping to plan and give it a good sort in the new year to see if it’s something I believe in to carry on with. So,if the characters are there,now is the time to be heard. I hope to have a first draft of a book(whether it’s this one,or another),written by next December.

I also hope to be more productive in my blog writing and writing in general. I’ve slacked over the past few months with the sites I write for.

Ok so this blog post has started to turn into resolutions so I’ll stop there and write that another day.

I think I’m going to take a break from blogging everyday and go back to once a week instead. That way I’m not boring you with a daily routine as there really isn’t a lot to report at the moment. Not op wise anyway.

So every Friday I’ll put up a post about what happened that week. It may be post op related,it may not but I’ll make sure to include something in there for those of you who are still interested in it,despite it becoming boring.

I can’t thankyou enough to yjose of you who have read these posts. It means a lot,so thankyou.

I hope you all have a great Christmas and I’ll catch up with you on Friday,after the big day.

😘

Days 58-60:Post Op

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Updates and exciting things over the past few days include:

Mcbusted signing.

Me and steph went and met Mcbusted on Friday at their cd singing in London. We had priority so were one of the first people to meet them. They were so lovely.

I vlogged the experience if you wanted to watch it.

Work update:

As of now,I’ve finished all my work for this semester, aside from my timed law assignment on Thursday. I filmed my experience of the surgery(like updating regularly on here,but in video format). You can watch all four below.

Food update:

Not much in the good situation although I did buy the chicken popcorn from Asda the other day and have eaten quite a lot of that over the past few days.

Also I had toast with marmite earlier. My god I’d forgotten how good it was. So good.

Writing update:

Last but not least. Inspiration for a story struck me Friday morning at an ungodly hour. I’ve since written over 5,000 words. Whether it may sense or not is a different story but I’m enjoying having the ideas and writing again.

Hope you’re all well.

😘

Day 56 and 57:Post Op

Really short post today as there really isn’t a lot to report. Just a quick one to let you all know that the first of the five of my jaw surgery vlogs I mentioned previously is now up on my channel if you wanted to check it out.

The others will follow over the next few days. Also finished my music work which is good. Anddd I’m off to meet Mcbusted at their cd signing in London tomorrow so another exciting and more interesting post will follow tomorrow(or Saturday).

Hope you’re all well.

Catch up with you over the next few days.

😘😘

Day 53,54 and 55:Post Op

Day 53:

Not alot happened on Sunday. It all went by in a blur to be honest. All I remember is having a boiled egg and being able to eat toast,which I hadn’t done for ages. Also the dominoes I ended up ordering for dinner which went down equally as well. Atleast I know I can eat pizza. Ha.

Day 54:

Today was the day I was dreading. Another hospital appointment and I didn’t get the news I wanted. That news being my braces coming off. Guess what? They’re still on and will be until after New York as my next appointment isn’t until January 23rd. Brilliant. Oh well,they haven’t stopped me eating yet,so there’s no reason why they shouldn’t now.

She put another thing on my top teeth,I don’t think its a wire so that’s why I’ve just called it thing. Anyway said thing should help fill the gap that had started to form between my front tooth.

I also have to keep wearing the elastics. That doesn’t bother me too much but I didn’t come out very happy.

Soon forgot about it when I got back on the train to Southampton though. All will be worth it. Almost there,just another few months to bare.

Day 55:

Finished up the last of the biscuits despite my mouth hurting where she’d tightened the braces before going to my seminar.

For those who didn’t see my status last night I’m going to film a series of videos documenting the procedure for an assignment so keep an eye out on my YouTube channel over the next few days.

Afterwards I went good shopping. Lethal. Went down the soup aisle by accident and soon regretted that. Off soup for life now,well for now anyway.

Came back and had a jacket potato before seeing Tim this evening. We watched High Fidelity and are Victorian sponge. Good night.

Seminar tomorrow morning(my last law one before my times assessment next week). I got through my last one so there’s no reason why I shouldn’t be able to do this one.

Music is pretty much done so I’ll finish the last tweaks before submitting that tomorrow. Then that’s it at uni aside from the odd meetings about New York and a tutorial next week.

Seems weird that it’s almost Christmas break when I barely even done the term. Glad I submitted assignement a on time though. 2 more to go and then I can enjoy Christmas break.

Off to the cinema to see Paddington inbetween my seminar and New York meeting tomorrow evening. Rather excited I have to admit.

Hope you’re all well

If there’s anything you wish to see on this blog or vlogging wise let me know.

Night you lovely lot.

😘

Day 51 and 52:Post Op

Day 51:

Remember the meat,yorkshires and potatoes with gravy I said I was having for dinner in my last post? Yeah,that didn’t go down well atall. As soon as I walked into the kitchen and smelt the gravy, I gagged. It brought back far too many memories of liquidised food. Bleurgh. Safe to say I won’t be having gravy anytime soon.

I made up for not eating dinner the previous night,yesterday. Had the same for lunch as I had Thursday so I won’t bore you with that.

Me and mum did go for a McDonald’s last night though,which I managed to eat. Dad also bought in a chicken and pineapple pizza which I didn’t think I’d be able to eat but could.

Day 52:

Me and mum went shopping today. Before that though we finished off the left over pizza.

Shopping was a success. Bought three jumpers(two of which are being wrapped for Christmas) and a bobble hat(which is also being wrapped). It got me even more excited for New York. Six weeks Monday,guys. Oh my god!

By the time we finished,I really fancied a McDonald’s burger as that was one thing I was yet to tackle. Success. I ate walking back to the train station and it was delicious.

We then had sausages in rolls and chocolate cheesecake for pudding. The sausages went down well. For some reason though I can manage them but not rolls which is odd. The cheesecake was nice too.

Sorry I feel like these posts are literally about good and what I eat at the moment. Starting to think I’ll just blog when exciting things to do with the process happen. My appointment on Monday for example.

Expect my next post then as I feel these are getting boring now.

Hope you’re all well lovelies 😘